A painted sign at the Potbelly in my building at work.
Yow. So, I’ve been getting some ‘concerned’ e-mails and calls lately, due to my last post it seems. After reading it, I can see how it can worry some people. That wasn’t really my intent, and now I sound like I’m some kind of ridiculous emo kid screaming for attention. :P
Yeah, I wrote it while heated up with some emotions, but my main goal was to just say: “I’m not going to keep tabs online anymore.” There’s a certain someone that I follow/stalk online, and I just felt like I need to avoid doing that for reasons I won’t get into right now. All I can say is now I’m less stressed out, and I’ve come to better understand my feelings about that girl a little better. I learned it’s not the end of the world, and relationships should be a happy affair, without any of the drama. It’s still complicated right now (at least to me) and I haven’t completely figured out how to handle the whole thing; but I just know that no matter what happens, I want her to be happy, and I want myself to be happy.
But in addition to that, I also felt like my time can be better spent focusing on other goals like going out, seeing more shows, reading more books, and finding more productive things to do. Instead of going through pages of posts from the people I follow on Tumblr, or updating every single photo or status in my Facebook profile, I want to just focus on becoming a better person. It’s so weird how these social sites had made me so anti-social… I know several people who don’t have a Facebook profile, or Twitter, or a Tumblr, and they are completely happy and doing well. I felt like I was dependent on these social sites, so I’m trying to ‘quit’ them. And with that free time, I hope that I can concentrate on strengthening my personal relationships.
OK. So with this post, I officially call </drama>. Time to move on and start living life. I decided to keep my twitter going though, since it’s not as time consuming. So, if you still want to try and discern how my life is going through random messages of 140 characters or less, feel free to follow me there! lol :P
And, who knows… maybe later on, when I’m more comfortable I’ll come back and post again. In the meantime, just take everything you read online with a grain of salt. :D
Photo taken 11.17.09
Waiting for the Red Line at North/Clyborn.
So… I posted all the stuff I had in my queue. I think I’m going to take a break from tumblr, twitter, and blogging in general. Recently, I’ve just been really frustrated over—what else—a girl. I’m really conflicted and discouraged over the whole thing. I want to just spill it all out here, but I think it would be very inconsiderate and improper of me to. Especially since I’m pretty sure the girl might read this and figure it out.
Tumblr, twitter, facebook… they’re all fun distractions. And that’s what they’ve become: distractions. I need to focus on what’s in front of me, physically. I need to get away from the glowing monitor screen. I need to move on. I need to get a girlfriend. I need to get fucking laid. I need to find love, no matter if it’s brief or everlasting. I need to get a damn life outside of this online bubble I’ve encased myself in.
So, dear followers. Thanks for following me. I really do appreciate it. I’m not going away forever, but I just need to break away from my bad habits, my addiction. I haven’t gotten anything really fulfilling out of it. I can’t continue reblogging amusing images, condensing emotions into phrases and quotes, and just wishing for things to be better.
I’m going to try and gain more life experiences, hopefully to mature and grow up some more. I was beginning to when I moved out here to Chicago last year, but I grew complacent, and at the same time, fell for this girl. Time to return my focus on other things.
If you ever grow unhappy doing something, why continue doing it? :)
Photo Taken 02.06.10
“I’m ambivelent about a lot of places, but I am unrestrained in my love for Chicago. Only Chicago could convince me that the New York hot dog was not, in fact, anywhere near the apex of the hot dog arts (The Chicago Red Hot deserves that honor). Two respectably old school baseball teams, great, great bars, a tradition of unapproachably good and important music, its own, truly imposing style of architecture, an attitude both big city wise-ass and heartland lack of bullshit, a city open to the best and most excessive/creative of new, experimental cooking styles, loaded with great chefs (many of whom are pals), it’s simply another place I’ll use any excuse to visit.”
Anthony Bourdain. (via shynessisnice) (via windycity)
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